It annoys the piss out of me when I read an interview with a favorite female musician, artist, writer ect and right off the bat the interviewer: 1) makes a huge deal about them having a vagina and 2) mentions how they look, specifically in suggestion that they are some sort of eye-candy. I feel like it negates their talent - its like half a dozen design interviews I've been on where its clear they are thinking: "oh how cute, she thinks she's an artist!" because they either barely glance at my portfolio and some never looked at it at all... but if your an artist how they hell are they to judge your skills if they are ignoring your portfolio?

Why does it matter if they are attractive at all - attraction and beauty is subjective. And not to mention there's inevitably a photo of the person they are interviewing for the reader to clearly see what the person looks like! But of course if you own a vag we need to be validated as attractive in order to be talented... even, apparently if the interviewer is a woman.

In the interview entitled, Sonic Youth Ages Gracefully, (oh don't even get me started on the title) Kim Gordon is talking about packing to go on tour and the jackass interviewing her seriously, seriously, says to Kim Gordon,"Yeah all those shoes!" what?! what the hell?! Because every woman owns so many shoes how on earth would a successful, talented woman possibly live without seven thousand pairs of shoes?! Is this 2009? You know you'd never get this sort of thing with an interview with a male anything.. most times not even in a women's magazine would they resort to such utter stupidity. I just heard a podcast with Thurston Moore and Lee Ranaldo they didn't ask them about packing shoes, or mention how attractive the interviewer may think they are.

The only other interview that pissed me off more than this one was one with Tanya Donelly with the Providence Phoenix and the person interviewing her described, in detail, exactly what she was wearing. I remember pausing in the midst of reading this thinking, "What does her clothes have to do with her musical talent?!" Much in the same way as, What does Kim Gordon's shoes have to do with fucking anything?!I think Kim Gordon handled this interview with far more grace than I probably could of.

Mel's project for the next god-knows how long.. is school, the betterment of oneself for the long haul of breathing and life. I'd like to be a shiny happy useful human being. Its not like I thought applying or going to grad school would be a breeze. I knew it'd be tough, and a possible financial burden. Though, I would like it to be a tad less intimidating - this is my career/future at stake! Right now I am so stressed out just by looking at all the stupid Grad school requirements! teacher portfolios, art portfolios, portfolio training sessions, GRE, MAT, PRAXIS-PRE test or whatever the hell its called, and they're not free kids!! then applications fees, students fees, lab fees, breathing fees, interviews, portfolio reviews, the review of all the art classes you've taken to determine if you/your art are acceptable or not? blood, sweat, tears, essay about why you want to go there, be a teacher, want to pull out your own hair and check yourself into Butler.

My dream of living in a commune is sounding like a good idea, say fuck it all - leave the 'helping the world' to someone else, maybe I'll just join the PeaceCorps though I'm probably too old now. Is there an Older-People-PeaceCorps?

oh and I found this on the nets, go download and be merry, music is my source of sanity right now :
http://www.tanyadonelly.com/music.html